Screw Your Diet….

Ok well Im done with this diet bullshit to be honest..

Like of course I would love to lose 10 lbs again and feel and look good. But Im doing it different this time. Im cutting all really oil things. And replacing them with veggies. Even though I normally eat pretty healthy. 

Its all greens, fruits, veggies, yogurt, nuts, and some chicken now. bye bye yummy fattness xD 

I will worry about working out in a month ;)

Is this normal to feel this way?

Maybe its just me, but for some reason I got really hurt because I found videos that my boyfriend made for his ex girlfriend of him singing her songs, drawing her stuff, and I know his ex girlfriend before that he did the same things. And would do nice things like that for them.

But he has been dating me longer then any other relationship he has been in, and he has never done anything like that for me. He has never really done anything random and nice for me unless it was out of guilt. 

How do you think I should feel about this?

*reminder that I have talked to him about this but all he thinks is Im trying to change him.


The light seems to be dimming

so effortlessly

dimming into moon light

Every time I close my eyes

there is just no you

only in my dreams

slipping so effortlessly

saying goodbye 

Was it you or me

who began to decrease

in this love 

that would never seem to decease

I cant seem to face this

without hurt

that hurt that makes you question


(Source: getawaywiththistonight)

…then I realized that I lost him, I fucking lost him.
Im feeling so lonely, 저 외로워요…

“Andy and I~ I look up to this man more then anyone could imagine. He is all I’ve ever wanted. Regardless if he doesn’t love me back, he’s still the man I’ve always wanted. And I can only hope that the future will look brighter with such a great guy like him and I can always be there for him, supporting him, helping, and loving him. ❤❤❤”

As the passing moths and especially weeks have gone by. I have never had so much emotion and excitement over one person. You tell me not to fall for you once I think I have you. But right as you say that, I find myself falling for you. I’m not sure if it’s the time I have put into everything that has made me fall for you, or if it’s because of how alike we are. Or if it’s just me, I just hope to make you happy, less stressed, and take away most of your worries. I’m not asking for you to give me everything I’m willing to give you. You just being there when you can, holding me, and being yourself is all that I ask. I just want to help you forget about your hurtful days, about the one you think got away, and realize how much better things really are. I have to admit, I think with in a short amount of time I will be falling in ….in….in love with you. The one feeling I haven’t felt in years. But you deserve the best, even if you don’t always give it. ❤❤❤

My 오빠~ I don’t know how I would keep my sanity with guys if he wasn’t there to help me out! kkkkkkk And yes my hair is now purple :P